
An Angry Email
ICAN member Michelle Webb writes it from the heart, about the state of birth for the woman whose baby is determined to be breech.
So I am going back through the c-section stuff, and it relates to a lot of the abuse from my childhood and it seems to have to deal with one I have to deal with another.
I have written a lot of platitudes and I have been at times very much at peace with my c-section, but having dealt with some shit in the past few weeks and after reading the e-mail from the midwifery student about her research paper and having read for years about the inability of womyn to sue for their unwanted c-sections and other personal stuff that has happened today and this week... I needed to write something ANGRY... because I am really stinking angry.
STATE SACTIONED RAPE
I have a beautiful little girl. She is beautiful.... and the day she was born my body was ripped apart. The day she was born I was denied a womyn's right to labour and she was denied a baby's right to choose her birth date. The day she was born the great country I live in failed to meet the promises it makes in its own Charter of Rights.... The day she was born a crime was committed against both of us. And the day she was born was just another day in the medical world of birth.
In Canada, the SOGC (the society of ob's and gynecologists of Canada) recommends c-sections at 38 weeks for babies presenting breech. Their recommendation impacts the ability of doctors to get insurance providers if they offer womyn the opportunity to labour with their babies. Thus, even those doctors who dislike the invasive and risky c-section above normal labour and birth are inclined not to offer womyn an option to birth. Thus few doctors are able to have and maintain the skills to catch breech babies... THUS, a non-elected group of people, representing an elite class has essentially denied the rights of womyn to labour and birth their breech babies with a skilled attendant.
The recommendation was made based on a study called the Term Breech Trial. The TBT was released in 2002 and received criticisms from care providers skilled in breech delivery for its dangerous and ill-defined protocols. Good candidates for breech did not enter the study to avoid being randomized into the 'surgical' category. Other care providers self identified as having 'breech skills' without any definition being set out within the study. And the results were catastrophic... but a recommendation was made, and in Canada and around the world it has been adhered to.
Brave souls spoke out against the TBT. The dangerous protocols, the arrogance of the study's authors... the lack of raw data released.
The very authors revoked their recommendations after the TBT's 2 year follow up. The decision to revoke was not even based on the poor protocols of the original study, but on the long term lack of benefit for babies and mothers.
BUT THE RECOMMENDATION STILL REMAINS IN THE SOGC GUIDELINES.
State sanctioned rape.
Sure, one could search out a homebirth midwife skilled in vaginal breech delivery, beg her to take you on in the last weeks of your pregnancy, find a place to stay within her catchment area... yes, every gestating womyn has the energy to battle like that for her birth.... NOT
I was cut after hunting the province for a doctor who would offer me a trial of labour. My midwife lied, she implied that it was illegal for midwives to attend breech.
I was cut and bleed energy out of my incision site for years following my birth.
I was cut and raped and my very photos show that part of me died that day.
My daughter's birth date was decided by a rotation schedule.
All of this was done with respect only because I fought the OB who told me I was irresponsible and inconsiderate to not schedule my section at her convenience.
STATE SANCTIONED RAPE
No, womyn are not able to attain legal restitution for the damages their bodies and souls suffer after a c-section. Because like all rape, the damage is hard to prove, and like with all rape, the burden of proof seems to fall on the victim, who is just trying to put the pieces of their lives back together.
STATE SANCTIONED RAPE
Yes, this is angry... And maybe even unbalanced. I am not writing it as a piece of literature, I am not writing an editorial, I am not writing a testament. I am writing as part of healing and sometimes that is ugly and angry and BIG and LOUD.
It is what it is. I am not planning to start a debate about what rape is and isn't. I am letting go of rage in a place where I have come to expect support and empathy.
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